My Baby's Father

I want to be a father one day. And I envision my boyfriend to be my baby's other daddy. I see one strapped to my chest in one of those strappy things. I see the other child holding Tor's hand as we walk down the street. Or seeing both of them toddling along the beach in Bridgehampton.

How can I raise a child with someone who doesn't listen to me? Who doesn't ever want to get beneath the veneer of contentment to real intimacy and trust? I can only assume he doesn't want to be intimate with me or want to trust me with his life/love/daily happenings.